met up with xue last night,ended up i waited her for 2 hours. -____-
she apologised and said that she fell asleep and had already eaten at home when we were supposed to eat late dinner together. -____-

ended up i ate a mcspicy chicken burger at mac's as i had been starving for the past 1+hrs while waiting for her.
the waiting was really not an easy task as xue is staying nearby that area somemore...can cry ah! LOL

i guess,lateness is the only bad thing about her...so far.

we found a place at the void deck ,sat down and chat.as usual,she spoke most of the time...
about the meaning in life....about kharma... at her age,i was rather surprised that she spoke with buddhism knowledge...

we stayed there for 4 hours and went back to hougang mall to eat our early breakfast, korean cup noodle. LOL

basically,we accompanied each other through the night (or rather, 6 hours)...

when we got back home,we MSN abit before i KO on the bed...xue called and i was very sleepy to chat..she hanged up...i slept till couple of hours later,mum called -______-

as i can't get back to sleep,i woke up to MSN and thought xue was not around but she replied.a super active girl lol

we were on the phone again,till halfway xue was quiet and i asked her,"do you normally hog onto the phone when you have nothing to chat?

"don't know" was her reply.

out of sudden,i heard a snoring sound....she dozed off. lol

before that,she claimed that she does not feel like sleeping,in fact she wanted to bath,change and off to town area. LOL

good sunday afternoon peeps!

just came back from hougang mall, with xue. LOL

was sleeping and suddenly received a call from xue at 622am (according to her lol), asking me to wake up and go jogging -____-
told her i slept at around 3am and did not have enough of sleep LOL
she don't care,forced me to wake up and meet her at 715am...
we ended up dilly dallying over the phone for around 10 mins before she hanged up. hahaha

first time seen her in tracking suit and as usual,she wore the typical "ugly betty" spects lol.
i noticed that alot of eyes were looking at her when we were jogging, i told her that and she asked me why?
i then said ,"told you liao,you are pretty".
resulted i kena scolded "siao" by her LOL
really mah,she is pretty ,with nice fair complexion,looks even nicer with sunglasses.

she was jogging at a fast pace in the beginning and i told her to slow down lol
and there,she started to pant halfway through the route haha

we had a good time jogging though it was only 2 rounds around punggol park (we walked and jogged as she was abit exausted)
xue was surprised that i can still jog when she stopped to walk -___-

actually i felt good jogging at the park despite it was my 1st time doing that in my life.lol
we jogged together, more like i was the one to motivate her not to stop jogging lol

as usual,she always emphasized that she is fat... -____-

thanks xue for motivating me.

BUT

after 2 rounds,she suggested going to macdonald's for breakfast -_______-
"die liao lor after abit of jogging,still eat fried food!", i then told her.

she said "it's only this time!" LOL

accompanied her to shop for some female accessory and realised that i was the only guy in that area lol
we then headed to punggol CC as the library hasn't opened yet,went there to sit around and talk...while xue was "meddling" with her newly bought accessory.

and....went back to the shopping mall... again. lol

ok..i just came back like 30 mins ago....my legs are tired.
later still going out with xue again haha.
we are going to orchard road for a walk and she's going to show off her new accessory! LOL

we had a great time. introduce a new brother of mine, brother xue :D

and this was the first time that i wore just a simple t-shirt with shorts outside ,because i used to wear smart casual with my bag (because i am not confident enough due to my body size)

but with xue around,i think i have used to it wearing such "less" clothing in public LOL

seriously,i am still not confident enough to wear it in public, alone.

my confidence needed to be boost.... hmm.

hey toothfairy & girl, really appreciate 2 of you took the effort not only to read my blog,but also posted comments.many many thanks!
thanks to others who have been reading up my blog though no comments. thankiew very much!

i'm a pretty simple contented guy,even if there's no reader,i would still blog if i have something to write, that is. :p

she gave me a call yesterday at 6+pm,i was very surprised that she called me up...chatted for 15 mins.came to know that she has stopped meeting up with new chatters as she has been busy these days.
and congrats to her that she stands a chance to promote to senior sales manager. :D

xue called me up to chat last night,told her that actually i have army RT (remedial training) every week monday,wed & sat till sept.so yeah this morning's jogging cancelled, again! :X

actually to be honest, i am lazy to go punggol park for a jog.but if the venue is downstairs,i would not have hesitated. :X
but since xue even mentioned me in her blog that we have a bet on losing weight,i guess i better don't make her disappointed.

2 of us are like brother and sister though she asked me to call her brother too instead of "sister" LOL.see how tomboy she wannabe.

we are not possible lah,we do not have that kind of chemistry for each other. :p

just went out with xue last night as she asked me out to PS,but last minute she told me am i ok if we meet up with N, another irc chatter ,at clark quay. i was fine with that.

as usual,xue never failed to be late. -__-
i had been waiting for her an hour.i'm a pretty patient fella but i have been used to waiting for people LOL

seen the pics of N on xue's hp ,N was attractive enough many months back but now,she has put on weight.the last time i have seen her was couple of months back.

and xue always emphasized that N is chio-er (prettier) than her ,i can't stand her! :|

while xue and me were walking to liang court through clark quay, i have seen a very pretty lady wearing in white (not ghost ok?LOL) with long hair,very nice face features and xue said that she must have went for plastic surgery.

clark quay is an attractive place in the night,with all the nice lightings hanging on the trees...
but it's not a place for me as i don't quite like crowded places.

passed by novotel hotel and reminded me of "her",thought of SMS her to ask her for a meetup but think again,she must be at home busy chatting on IRC at that time.

hanged around at macdonald's with N and as usual,she wanted me to buy her food through hinting when she came to the order counter to find me.actually i would not have mind to treat her but right now i am jobless,i'm definitely not geh gao type (calculative in hokkien),in fact i'm generous (if only i have spare cash lah!).

the girls were interrupting each others' topics everytime.lol
chatted about ghost stuffs, chinese indo & malaysian girls...snuff films.
snuff films are illegal.involves decipitation of bodies. for those faint hearted,it is never for you.google for it.

N went to the counter to exchange coins while xue and me were waiting for her outside.
wanted to send N back home but xue asked me not to bother since there's straight bus to her place and somemore we don't wish to miss our last train too.it was then 1115pm though.

saw "her" msg on IRC and "she" thought that i don't wish to talk to her as i never responded.

today's jogging session cancelled as it was raining,xue said starting from tmr then since the floor is wet.

went out with xue, an irc chatter whom i have met for the 4th time yesterday late night.maybe because 2 of us needed accompany.

we chatted alot with her doing talking most of the time.she mentioned her family,her past r/s problem. and some interesting topics...
she always think she is ugly with no figure.she has asked me many times what do i think of her looks,is she fat?

oh boy...she has been asking me about her looks since the previous meet up,and she is happy when i ALWAYS told her that she is pretty to me.a jacelyn tay look alike.

talking about body size, she said that i am fat upon me asking her.and she asked me to go jogging with her every morning which i promised her in the end as her words motivate me!

i always thought xue was an attitude problem girl plus an attention seeker,but i was dead wrong.
in fact,she's a nice girl ,very nice to chat up with.a good conversationlist...though she is weird and mysterious at times.

some girl who treated her ex bf very nice but had been taken for granted.

2 of us can be good friends as she said,upon me asking her what does she think of me (since she claimed that she is good in judging people.:p )

was flattened though happy when she said my face features are not bad,except that i have to do something to slim down my face. lol

luckily she is staying quite near,so we can have more meet ups next time.

was surprised that one of my hmm.... so-called close net friend,synatrix SMS me asking me am i alright as i had been offline for the past few days. i was then wondering did he "pay attention" to save my hp no when i revealed on the main channel of IRC...or maybe she gave synatrix my hp no SMS me?

was trying to download the sound driver for my PC,but had some problem so i troubled von mei to help me get it..she urged me to on my MSN so that she can send me the file ,so i on it very reluctantly as i thought i had quited MSN (to avoid her)

was very surprised that i have received her MSN msg despite that she was supposed to piss with me..
she was saying,"i hope you are alright", "i dun wanna call"
seeing her that she was not angry with me anymore,i decided to join back the particular IRC channel which she joins in everyday, and initiated a PM with her...she even asked me how have i been.
guaranteed plus chop she is not angry anymore upon me asking her is she angry with me.

to my reader "girl", you were right,she still trust me despite that she heard so many rumours about me,i am really happy!!!

but...i feel that she has changed recently...we do not chat as much as last time,much lesser now.only a few sentences from me,and replies from her.we are not as close as 2 weeks ago..
though it's IRC, a virtual chatroom thingy,she became more "flirtatious"...especially after she joined sg30+ channel...the more "flirtatious" she is,the lesser attention i get from her...

a chatter L,has been getting closer to her..they have been having meals together..my mind wandered around...maybe she falls in love with L (without knowing,maybe)..though i know they are just trying to tease each other on IRC , i was jealous whenever they called each other "darling/dear" despite it's just a virtual chatroom.

but upon me asking her does she still want to meet me,she replied "see first"...i wasn't so sad as i am contented that she is not ignoring me nor angry with me.

i was trying to learn how to flirt with girls on IRC ,so that maybe i can catch her attention despite that i know she does not like guys who flirt around.

i only want her attention...i don't wish to be neglected by her again though i am aware that 2 of us are not even in a r/s,just purely friends.

ever since i known her on IRC,i look forward to chat with her every single day,i never go and initiate to know other girls.i just want to know her better,to be there for her when she is down,to be there for her to vent her anger when she is in bad mood.

i really hope that she pours out her problem to me.

am i expecting too much from her as a friend?

i don't know myself...maybe i don't mind she takes me for granted too.
all i ask for,hope she understands my intention (not motive).

she said in the main channel that all she asks for is just a simple guy who loves and cares for her despite that she knows i was around in the channel.
to her,i'm a simple guy and she knows that i love & care for her too.but she really does not know whether she likes me the same way i do...she told me once in PM upon me forcing her does she like me,"it is hard to understand you" "how to go further"?

she told me that i have a weird temper if i remember..i guess it was my emotion,i appeared to be cold toward her when i was emo-ing.

i have to overcome my emotional problem if i want to be more open up to her.

hope that she PM me when she is on IRC later.....

we had an arguement,she no longer treats me as her buddy....i really can't get over her....she said she won't meet me up and we can remain as virtual friends...no matter how she treats me,i'll always be there for her when she needs someone.no doubt,she'll always be my one and only confidant.

her SMS says,"i did not choose to believe in anyone.i'm not the sort to trust or believes in anyone that easily."
i am still wondering what did those replies meant...does she mean she trust those hearsays about me from those people?or simply,does she mean she still has faith in me?she has been hearing alot of rumours about me on IRC and what's worst,i accused her that she did not talk to me when she was not in the mood.this pissed her off....

but if she still has faith in me,why do we still remain as virtual friends?

frankly speaking,i really have no idea why are there so many rumours about me ..i mean,we have known each other for around 5 months,she should know my personality more or less.

i really hope she is pissed of me because of my accusation toward her.if because of the rumours which made her decided that she won't meet me up and we can't be real friends,i'd feel disappointed with her.

i really missed those days when we were very close together,always finding for each other to chat...i missed her voice too.... :(

though we never met,she's very important to me.if not,i would not have poured out my darkest past to her.

i really hope she'll forgive me after some period of her cooling down...she said she is a forgiving lady,but that does not mean i am taking such an advantage from her!!!

because of an impulsive remark from me,she got so pissed off...does this show that she cared so much for our friendship?

i really missed you badly.... :~~