was looking forward an outing from another group.
was looking forward for some daidee games.

reached, self introduction done.kicked start with "heart attack".13 of us were sitting on the floor playing it.(it is inconvenient to quickly move into the position of "palms beat" with the big body of mine,especially on the floor in a big group)
before they started the next game "bluff", i asked why not we play daidee since we have a few decks of cards,definitely not a problem at all.somemore,a few others agreed too.

but still,they proceeded "bluff",never played it because i find it inconvenient to stretch out my hand to the middle due to my body size compared to the 10 others in small size.

the next game followed by "junglespeed" which i do not like at all, about snatching the middle stuff.gave it a pass and closed my eyelids to rest.

i felt bored, i thought they would stop the game for daidee.was dead wrong.
i went out,took a seat at the waiting lounge.stoned there for like 20 mins before i stoned outside the room we booked.i stood there like an idiot for 40 minutes.there was a female member whom i got along pretty well with, called and asked me where am i.
i then told her i was outside looking at some stuffs when i was actually standing & stoning there for like 40 mins.

before we left safra, they wanted to take a group pic.i volunteered to help them take since i do not want to be photographed.

after that,we walked to a kopitiam.was walking slowly ,infact the last one at the back.all of them were chatting away happily.
another male member slowed down his pace in order to catch up me.he noticed i am weird,so asking am i ok.of course i answered him "i am".
cannot be possibly saying "i am bad"?

anyway after the dinner,we walked all the way out to mount faber.none of them approaches me even though i walked infront.
the guys were looking on iPhone for navigation.just when the organizer and few others stopped by the map, i carried on walking slowly.the rest carried on walking infront.
after finished looking on the map, they bypassed me without asking why am i walking so slow or such.yes, i was left the last one, again.

seeing the walking distance drifted further, seeing the 12 of them walking closely and chatting away happily, with their back facing me ,as the last guy.i felt really awful.i then decided to "ninjutsu" by smoking out (go home).

i felt like shit.to pay for $12 ($4 transport to and fro, $8 on booking the room with the birthday cake) to taste the feeling of being left out.i could have stayed at home to have more rest.why wasted my time went all the way down to mount faber safra?
i mean , i did anticipated for daidee, but ended up so disappointed.

in my opinion, if i were the organizer or it's committee member, i would not have neglected the ONLY lonely member by carrying on my game.i would have approached them or having a chat.or even,walked out to see see look look

i mean come on,it was very obvious i walked so slow,maybe at least 5 metre apart.
i am sure many of them should know i am not really fine but yet,no one bothers.they only chat happily among themselves.